
I couldn't believe that I had to wait an entire weekend to find out if I had breast cancer. The weight of uncertainty hung heavily over me, a palpable tension that seemed to grow with each passing hour. I was only 33 years old, navigating the chaotic yet joyful life of raising three children under the age of four, all while being pregnant with my fourth baby girl. The thought of potentially facing a life-threatening illness while carrying another child was almost too much to bear. It was during my sixth month of pregnancy that I first noticed the lump in my breast. Initially, I dismissed it as a clogged milk gland, a common occurrence for someone like me who had breastfed all my daughters, given their close ages. I reassured myself that my body was simply reacting to the demands of motherhood and the hormonal changes that accompanied pregnancy. However, during a routine OB appointment, my perspective shifted dramatically. My obstetrician, Dr. Larsen, examined me with a furrowed brow, and her demeanor suggested that she suspected something more serious. It was a Friday, and the timing felt ominous. Dr. Larsen's office was conveniently located across the street from the hospital where I had delivered all my daughters, a place that held so many precious memories for me. Without hesitation, she sent me directly to the hospital for a biopsy, her urgency amplifying my fear. I was in a state of shock, feeling extremely frightened and utterly alone in that moment. As I drove home, the reality of the situation began to sink in, and I immediately turned to prayer, seeking solace and peace amidst the turmoil that threatened to engulf me. The anxiety of waiting for answers was almost unbearable. Just as I was trying to process everything, Dr. Larsen called me on my
cell phone. Her voice was steady yet filled with concern as she informed me that the surgeon had a strong suspicion it was cancerous. My heart sank further as she advised me to prepare for the possibility of needing a babysitter, hinting at the many doctor appointments that would likely fill my calendar in the weeks to come. She reassured me that the results of the biopsy wouldn’t be available until Monday, leaving me to grapple with the uncertainty throughout the entire weekend. Dr. Larsen's words lingered in my mind, and she mentioned that everyone in the office was praying for me, a small comfort amidst the overwhelming fear. With the weekend stretching out before me, I focused on what I could control. I poured my heart into loving on my daughters, cherishing every moment with them, knowing that their laughter and innocence provided a much-needed distraction from my worries. I also dedicated time to researching breast cancer and its implications during pregnancy, trying to arm myself with knowledge that could help me navigate the storm that lay ahead. Each article I read brought new information, but it also fueled my anxiety as I contemplated the potential challenges I might face. Through it all, I prayed without ceasing, seeking strength and guidance, hoping for a miracle that would spare me from the trials I feared were imminent. The weekend felt interminable, a test of faith and resilience, as I braced myself for whatever news awaited me on that fateful Monday.
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